Losing

Heavy swollen eye-lids,
A lurch in the stomach,
An urge to vomit.
Clogged brain,
weak limbs---tottering.
Hands grope for support.......
The body collapses.
Hiding,supressing cries and sobs,
A choked gurgle escapes.
Deflected by the Blur......
It rebounds and echoes in my empty mind.
Trapped by the unfeeling,inhuman Blur.
The iron maiden is extracting the life,
falling behind in the race is Death.
Depressed.dejected,...................faltering.
Dying.

Ich spreche etwas deutsch.........

I am finally speaking deutsch............i am ecstatic!!!

Though i am just in the initial stages of it all, just making small conversations possible, trying to get the accent and diction right , twisting my tongue in all those wierd ways to just get the words right but its totally worth it!!!

My weekends have now become cluttered with two long deutsch classes,a pile of deutsch books,a few hasty trips to goethe institut(i still cant quite figure out which bus goes where in the city and eventually end up boarding a wrong one!!!!!!!) and the midnight oil i am burning to get my stuff right.

Wow, a lot of exclamation marks in those last few lines huh? But it's how I would say it. I like to keep my "voice" when I write.Seriously i have never been so excited about learning something new,hope that this one sticks!!

German has a word for everything, like "ohrwurm". Translated literally as "earworm" in English, it's the word for songs that get stuck in your head and won't go away.
maybe i will try and have an entire post in deutsch soon.....................till i feel i have learnt enough to brag about......:-)

Auf Wiedersehn!!!

My wierd questions

Life has been blog-dry for some time now.
This tag is intended to tickle the funny bone in all you guys......I got a mail this morning that required me to answer the following questions as part of some survey( god knows what it must be for!!)So here goes........

Q: Do you believe that the cup is half empty or half full?
A: Depends on its contents…


Q: Are you an outdoor or an indoor person?
A: Depends on what you wanna do. I mean, I can’t be trekking on my sofa, right?


Q: Where do you see yourself in five years?
A: FIVE YEARS! You’ve gotta be freakin' kidding me!


Q: What are you most proud of in your life?
A: My ass..................period. :p


Q: Romance or Kinky Sex?
A: A heady mix of both!


Q: Would you rather be hot or cold?
A: Is the question implying whether I prefer being in a cold or hot place? Cold definitely, with a hot partner and a bottle of scotch.


Q: Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
A: What kind of sadist thought of this question???


Q: Favorite element?
A: Carbon. (cuz that’s what gives us the DIAMONDS baby !!!)


Q: What was your last thought?
A: “What is my favourite element”(flash** periodic table chemistry book**)


Q: Have you had a beer in the last week?
A: I don’t drink beer. Get me tequila!


Q:Favorite body part?
A: Whose? Mine? I think I already answered that :D


Q:Do you like bananas?
A:Yes I do like to eat them. ....................*And the point was????*


Paranoia?not that i'm liking it but utterly convinced that its finally starting to show!!
WTF!!!

Of cloned plasmids and stubborn proteins..........

My posts are getting fewer by the day,the reason? i am working my ass off in my lab.
This is specially for those computer geeks who think my work is not half as much hard work as theirs.
This is also for those who are still partying and holidaying.........the new year has long begun my friend and that too with a bang!! But for us meaner and humbler creatures of the dust its all about working on weekends..........:-(

Well for my six-month term project i am working with E.coli and Lambda phage.Its basically a study of certain protein-protein and protein-DNA interactions when an E.coli is infected by a phage.I had to initially construct plasmids which had my concerned proteins under study cloned tandem into them.

It was working as i had planned(after reading a dozen papers on the subject) and i was proud of my pace!!..........i always am at many other things as well!! Then then came my roadblock,after purifying the proteins i couldn't get them to express on the Western Blot.
Patience i thought would pull me through here but stubborn that these proteins are,i didn't get a single blot band on the membrane.To make things worse,i used a wrong reagent today and screwed it all up.

Now i am clueless as to what's my next step should be.............maybe i should prepare the primary and secondary antibodies for the blot again.
What the FUCK!!!!!!!!!! thats four days of my work,staying in that lab till 9pm gone.
Life's a BITCH!!!!

My life's blah blah!!!!.......

Sorry, everyone…it’s finally “Me, me, me!” time again. I am once again here to take over the whole universe and spam it with only talk about myself. You don’t deserve to be treated this way-but, hey…it is the only time when I can really focus on myself so much. In the regular world, it is about everyone else. (Or is it?)

For those who wonder…. I’m fine, good even, which says a lot for me, even though I havn’t written much.It’s been hectic, and all of you have lives to so i’m sure you know how it goes.
Incredible how the days and weeks fly by, one blurred strip of color after another…A few highlights, a few issues, and my life can be placed neatly into a square little box, packed away and ready for someone else to open. Maybe a gift to someone? I don’t know really because I hardly get comments at all. It just tells me how uniquely similar I am to everyone else.

Few months back I was madly in love… Stupid, blind,dumb head-over-heels in love.
I can at least tell you that I am not with that person now, that I know. But then I ask myself ........"What does it matter, the grass is no greener elsewhere, only more freshly planted, the roots still shallow".
This time last year I knew where I would be this time, this year… I never doubted that I would still be in love.
Maybe it's time again for my barrelfull of alcohol and some serious post-coital cuddling!!